Saturday, March 29, 2008
cant help but wait
SSPPOORRTTSS DAY today. will be my last and final one in PL, just realised. and i din çherish it. wats there to cherish anyway? it's not like i was a star or worth remembering, lol.
i really cant help but wait, even if it take forever and a nighti just kept thinking of hugh jackman. i dunno why. it's not a habit, not a routine whatsoever. damn funny:
i dreamt that i got married. my mom was happy but she doesnt know who i got married to, she was just happy. i got married to hugh. LOL. funny shit. my mom was happily plucking the vege while cooking noodles and i was bathing when hugh stood outside with an emo hairstyle. ?!? OHOHOH, i found out something HUGE!!(dont narrow thoughts)..but can only do so after O levels. shit!
can't help but wait. watched
inside the actor's studio, HE DOES HIGH JUMP! not fair, i do high jump since young and i have not pass 1.70m and hugh, ... 1.89m!! life life life, why are you so torturous to me! i really really really wish i could meet him.):
man, i think that when people take picture..all of them look good. like today, i was asked to take a pic, although i enjoy taking/posing whatsoever, i kinda felt reluctant because i was not the good-looking sort and my other friends are all either photogenic or good-looking, like, who am i to fit in there sorta thing. dad told me if i like taking pictures he could get me into photography sessions, like becoming a
photojournalist. my heart din sank, i think it was asking '
so what now, i'm fated to be a bloody photojournalist? are u guys trying to stop my efforts in becoming something you wouldnt think it's possible?i'm feeling miserable, tired and hopeless. as much as i try to stay alive in life, i dont think i cant last any longer. and, i wish i could restart life again. excel in sports, taking part in every sports day, be part of the sports committee or sth like that. at least if i dont go far in life, i still have sports to turn to.
12:19 AM
clumsy cos i'm falling in love...
