Tuesday, October 16, 2007
dark times lie ahead
i feel so squared up..cornered. my rage is so past the damn limit, i dun know how i'm still able to hold it. i guess it was because i canned my sister with a brutal whip..i think there was a light bruise there, her knee. feel so bad.. but it was all to give the second sister an internal pain.
in school, i dun see dogs. i see dogs carrying some sort of disease..yuks. it's an offense to stand close to them or even look at them. how is it possible that dogs could still walk on 2 legs?
makes me sick. it's like i'm in a game, dogs disguise themselves as angels and for god's sake, fuck off. i'm not given any weapon( ohjoy, worst game ever) just friends/companions who share the common vision. HELLO, humans need to vent their anger yeah?
strangling to death is a beautiful thing to do, i just dun think it's worth it while you're stil schooling.
come on.. who wouldnt wish to see people they hate die of terrible death?..i know char wouldnt...joyce wouldnt either...ayyy, my soft hearted friends, where hath thy rage gone?haha.. then the question shot back at me: where hath thy forgiveness gone, to the devil?
nah..
my heart is numb, has no feelings..( take that: patience)
back home, it ain home sweet home..
it's a torture seeing siblings creating noise poluution
everyday gosh, how the hell did my mom tolerated that? ( man, her rage is pretty violent too) everyone says my sister is cute blah blah blah..yeah. but hey, i need silence..like real silence...
the one where you sit in the countryside under a tree, reading a book an embracing the winds. yeah...then suddenly BAM! you see atomic bomb bombing the vineyard..sordid pricks.
i wish i could live life like god-knows-who.. drink starbucks for breakfast, head to the cinema and catch as many movies, have a simple home-cooked dinner at home and read a book after that.or i could just stone at the huge poster of wolverine(:
i'm tired, physically, mentally...whatever-lly..
5:57 PM
clumsy cos i'm falling in love...
